1. I’ve been kind of pissed off at a friend lately. She’s been doing some crazy stuff and I had a moment of epiphany today when I realised that the real reason I was so angry with her was because I felt that the burden of talking to her about it lay on my shoulders. Once I decided that it wasn’t my responsibility I felt a sense of relief and my anger pretty much dissolved. 
  2. We watched Moonlight last night. It was a beautiful movie. The story was beautiful (and sad but ultimately redeeming) and the cinematography was beautiful too. I highly recommend it.
  3. I’ve found a way to get through my reading by using audiobooks. Reading is one of my favourite pastimes but since Chris and I have been together I find that I don’t get much of it done. I realise that it’s an alone-time activity for me and so even if I’m in bed and he’s watching a movie with headphones on or asleep, I still don’t get the same feeling as I did when I had my own room and could read alone. I’ve resolved that when we move out of here I’ll create a reading room/nook for myself. So while I’m working I listen to audiobooks all day. I used to have Netflix on but I’m finding I enjoy this more. 
  4. Sometimes I feel kind of guilty that I get to play in a studio all day. Especially when Chris is working so hard at a job that stresses him out so much. It had me thinking the other day of how many people never get to fulfill their potential because they have no choice but to just focus on survival. I always think back to something I read about certain ethnic groups in Africa where each person’s contribution is respected, and when a young person shows an affinity for something they become an apprentice and are guided and nurtured by an elder. All people have a place. Artists, musicians, healers… and everyone’s contribution is important. Every job is respected. Wouldn’t it be wonderful if we did that?

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