I put on a tshirt and a pair of jeans today to go run and errand and I was really surprised to see how small I looked compared to a few weeks ago. I have a waist again!

While I’ve been dissatisfied with my weight for a long time, I had always liked the shape of my body. And these past two years with the 30+ lbs I gained, I no longer looked like me. My proportions were all off and my waist had disappeared. I didn’t recognize or like my body anymore. 

I’m getting back my shape now, and hopefully the weight will follow. Now that I have to work in earnest to get back to where I was, I wonder why I was so picky about how I looked before to begin with. I’m never going to have my 19 year old body back,  but my 40 year old body was pretty nice and for the most part I quite liked it. I still have a long way to go, but seeing progress is really motivating. I’d forgotten what it was like to look in the mirror and feel good about my reflection. This feels great!