Sometimes I feel a little surprised and sad about the fact that I never had kids.

I always envisioned this future me as having them.

I just thought that once my life became more stable, emotionally, financially, relationship wise, that it would be natural progression. Even though current me was never even timely interested in parenting.

But as I got older, current me never turned into that future me that wanted to have kids. And when my life DID settle down and become stable I realised that I still didn’t want to be a parent.

And it makes me a little sad because I love children. And I’m very maternal. But I realize that I never wanted to be maternal on a permanent basis. I just wanted to be a good mother hen to my friends and be a great auntie to everyone else’s kids but at the end of the day I wanted to retreat to my quiet, peaceful, child free life.