• Catching up on Season 2 of The Crown
• We baked the ham last night and I made the glaze, threw together: brown sugar, cherry brandy, mustard, bitters, ginger, garlic, black pepper, a pinch of salt, some guava jam and some mustard seeds in rye whiskey. It tasted fucking amazing. I’ve been devouring all the ham.
• I have no idea how people watched It. We couldn’t get through more than half the movie. It was plotless. However we did watch Wind River (very good) and Better Watch Out (fun) and The Dark Tower (ok but watchable).
• Today was my aunt’s birthday but I didn’t even bother going over. I’ve been in relaxation mode since Saturday night.
• I’m hungry. Again.

de-is-me:

casper-the-friendly-being:

mintycoolnessisrelevant:

flowernstt:

its-just-a-phage:

fitzefitcher:

n0rma1-people-sxare-me:

A group of rough looking boys walked past me today and all I heard of their conversation was “he’s got that anxiety disorder bro so I went with him so he’d be more comfortable” and it made me realise the world isn’t all that bad

#this is team skull

The pet store I worked at had a pen with rabbits near the front door. On every side of the pen were huge signs saying “You can pet me, but don’t pick me up!”
One day two absolutely huge guys came in and one immediately reaches into the pen to grab a rabbit. Before i could say anything his friend grabbed his arm and asked him “did you see the sign?”
He said “yeah! it says that you can pick them up but don’t pet them!”
Then he went quiet for a moment and softly said “I didn’t read it right did I?”
And his friend just puts his arm on his shoulder and said “its ok, i know you’ve got that thing where words get mixed up. Let just pet these cute lil shits”
And I still haven’t gotten over that interaction.

I was walking my dog through Boston bc he likes the likes car rides. He’s a little thing tbh we call him short and long.
So this huge scary man with a full beard approaches me like “hey can my buddy and I pet your dog? He gets nervous around dogs but your’s is so small I think it’s a good place to start.”
Ofc I was like “yes he’s very friendly!” So this guy brings his equally big friend over and they sit on the floor while this man looks terrified of my tiny dog so big man number one asks “can I pick him up?” And i say yes so he picks him up and puts him on man number two’s lap and man number two is abt to freak out and his friend straight up just goes “hey man, it’s okay just relax I’d never let anything hurt you. He’s a good boy.” I’ll never forget it ever bc I know that man looked at me (5’3 , glasses, probably wearing a sweater vest) and my dog (kinda goofy looking little thing) and was like ‘ah yes the two least intimidating living things I’ve seen in Boston all day he’ll feel relaxed around them’ and went out of his way to help his friend. It makes me so happy

A good post, pure.

Another adorable story has been added.

can I have these posted right under the politics section in the newspaper? I feel like we need that kinda positivity rn.

skunkeyemcghee:

peachisty:

things you deserve this 2018:

• pure love
• a kind heart
• prosperity
• genuine happiness
• honesty and transparency
• softness
• hope
• good art
• clear skin

Amen

tips-for-depression:

It is very difficult sometimes to see other people celebrating holidays when you were at home dealing with your depression.

Try not to let this bother you.

These things last short periods of time, relatively. Try to see them as a good opportunity for you to enjoy something about your self; to enrich yourself in some way by this opportunity. (I like to read. Listen to music. Watch movies. Play a musical instrument. Clean my junk drawer. Paint. Write my ideas into my journal…)

If you can get out to enjoy the holiday, that is wonderful. If you cannot, that is also wonderful. Enjoying time with yourself is nothing to be ashamed of, or to feel bad about. Millions of other depressed people are at home dealing with their depression–you are definitely not alone.

onlinecounsellingcollege:

1. Pause before judging.

2. Pause before assuming.

3. pause before accusing.

4. Pause whenever you’re about to react harshly – and you’ll avoid doing and saying things you’ll later regret.

Lori Deschene

I went ahead and finished the order from tonight. I just wanted to relax, mentally, and not have it hanging over my head. I have one last market tomorrow. I want that to be the end of my work this year. So ring made, envelope addressed, just have to mail it out on Wednesday and I’m done!!!

It’s that time of the month where all I want to eat is carbs, carbs, carbs. I’m having fantasies about mashed potatoes, macaroni and cheese, rice pudding and french fries. 

I’m gonna go make myself a salad… before I gain ten pounds from thinking.

You know how by a certain age you kind of accept that most things in life simply aren’t gonna live up to your expectations and you make your peace with that? Well the gourmet mac and cheese at Aioli was EXACTLY as rich, creamy, flavourful and delicious as I imagined it to be in my head. It’s my new religion.

I finished all my orders, packaged all my orders, packed up all my stuff for Saturday and I feel so relieved and relaxed. And I actually have a free day tomorrow to boot! I’m so psyched to be done y’all. Maybe I can start writing about more than work again.

I’m physically exhausted. And I would really like to take a shower but I have to go back into the studio, I have one more ring to finish and three orders to package. Then I’ll be done. Well I have to make a run to the post office and we have our last market on Saturday. THEN I’ll be done. These last few days are draining all my life force. But Saturday will be the end of it. I can finally rest. Yay.

porterdavis:

I had an errand to run and decided on my way back to stop off at that new Starbucks and treat myself to a coffee and a sandwich. Not the cosiest Starbucks I’ve been to but it’ll do. I forgot to get some sort of Christmas themed coffee though. Next time. Or I’ll take one to go.

They just opened a Starbucks a ten minute walk from my studio. I say walk because the traffic here is really crazy and it’s usually quicker to walk in that direction than drive. Not that I’m gonna be doing any walking. But hey cool. Maybe I’ll go there and make time to post something on my blog for a change.

Yesterday one of the vendors nearly had a heart attack when someone picked up her stuff and left with it. After a few calls they found out who had it. The person mistakenly thought it belonged to another vendor he was giving a ride to.

So she was sitting there furious because she thought all her stock had been stolen and this other girl came up to comfort her. She basically told her to please get the fuck away from her.

And instead of leaving she stood in front of her saying I don’t know what. And several times she asked her to please leave her alone. And she wouldn’t. Finally she turned to me bewildered and said, “I’m just trying to give her my love!” I signaled to her to leave and she finally did.

I just watched the interaction and couldn’t understand how she couldn’t tell that this woman just wanted to be left alone. Her arms were crossed, she was breathing heavily in anger, and her expression alone would have put anyone off. If you want to be of service you need to give people what they need, not what you want.

I discovered something today

I was standing at my table dealing with a customer and I was feeling tired and a little irritable and then I slipped off one of my sandals and as my foot touched the wooden floor I instantly felt calmer. I was so surprised by the sudden change in my energy that for a moment I blocked out the table, the customer and the whole market. I slipped my other sandal off and the feeling of cool and calm was further magnified. I forced myself to come back into the space where I was interacting with the customer but I no longer felt tired or irritable. I just felt a sense of peace and pleasure at our interaction. Apparently I just needed grounding. I’ll keep that in mind next time I feel out of sorts. I don’t spend as much as my time barefoot as I used to but maybe I need to start doing that again. I grew up rarely ever wearing shoes. As I got older I got more “civilized”. I think it’s time I uncivilize myself some.

The girl who told me she had heard of me yesterday showed up at my table today with a friend. She had this weird energy. It was like a mix of arrogance and feigned indifference. I felt it yesterday too. She must have a friend dating an ex of mine or some shit. I dunno. It felt very high school. *rolls eyes*

I made a ring for someone last week, a prong setting with a stone in it. She somehow knocked out the stone this week and brought it back for me to repair. I can’t imagine how it could have happened. Settings get loose over time but not a week after. I remember setting the stone and it was set very securely, I took a really long time making sure it was secure. I’m upset that I have extra work to do because I have a bunch of orders to fill for the coming week. And I’m going to have remake the whole ring. I’m so stressed. 

This is the woman who gave me the $100 in $1 dollar bills. I’m so tired of her.

I wonder sometimes if people take it personally when you tell them you’re not interested in having kids? Like if they feel you’re criticizing their life choices? I get some interesting reactions to the I don’t want kids thing. Outright disbelief. Something is wrong with me. I’ll change my mind (I’ll be 45 in January I think it’s decided). Pity. Empathy. Understanding. I really don’t know why it’s a conversation still but people keep asking. Maybe they’ll stop when I’m 50.

Today at UpMarket I almost doubled the best sales day I’ve ever had. I was really surprised. And of course very, very happy.

Just one more to go and I’ll be all done for the year.

I realise I am very tired because I am getting supremely irritated anytime anyone touches any of my pieces. I’ve been straightening and re-straightening earrings since 9 this morning and I’m fucking fed up. Most days I’m more tolerant about this but today… today I’m ready to bark at people.

The market we did yesterday was scheduled for 9-5 which is really long for a market (my usual one is 9-3:30 and even then a lot of people pack up early) so I was not surprised to see a lot of people packing up at 3:30 yesterday. But I decided to stay because people were still coming and hey, less vendors less competition. It paid off and I made a full quarter of my sales in the last hour. Apparently the late bird catches the worm too.

I have another market today. I’ve been dreading this weekend. I’ve never done back to back markets before. I’m gonna take painkillers because I’m already in pain and it’s just 6:30. I am physically tired from yesterday. I already can’t wait for today to be over.

This woman came to my table with a friend of hers today (she referred to him as her friend plus I’m pretty sure they were both gay) and she picked up this one resin pendant of mine about five times and put it back down, commenting each time on how much she liked it. She wasn’t buying for herself she explained. But it was obvious that she really wanted it.

About ten minutes after they left my table her friend re-appeared without her and I smiled. “Please write me a bill for the pendant. You know the one.” I said of course I did and I told him it was really nice of him to get it for her.

One of the best things about the business I do is that I get to see a lot of generosity. Most of my clients buy for other people even when they really want something for themselves. It really makes me happy and I feel grateful and proud every time something like this happens that these wonderful people are my clients. And so many of them come back and tell me how much their recipients loved their gifts too. It really warms my heart. This is a part of the business I never anticipated. It’s a great bonus for sure.

The neighbour’s cat was here when I got to my studio today meowing incessantly for food. I don’t even know whose cat she is. She lost her collar and tags and they haven’t replaced it. I don’t get the feeling that they feed her enough. At all. When she first started coming around she was really thin. She put on weight after we started feeding her. But I ran out of food a few days ago and she’s become demanding to the point of being a pest. I gave her something to eat to keep her quiet. But she seems ravenous. Every two hours she starts meowing for food again. I wonder if something is wrong with her or if she’s just greedy? I’ll never understand cats the way I understand dogs….

I’m often surprised when I touch other women how different they feel from me. I’ll hug someone and touch her arm and it will feel so soft and frail to me. My arms feel meaty and muscular. Solid is how I’ve heard them described. Some women feel so tiny and fragile compared to how I feel in my own skin. Like you could snap them in two. It’s so weird. I wonder what I feel like to them.

joost5:

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I was talking to another vendor at UpMarket on Sunday about Christmas gifts. I was telling her I’m not much of a exchanging gifts kind of person. I usually give jewelry to my immediate family (it’s not always an exchange either sometimes I give and don’t get anything and honestly I don’t care about that, my family is generous in many other ways) and she was adamant that she never gives her jewelry as gifts. 

When I asked her why she said it was because they would come to expect it and therefore never support her business. I shrugged and said I’ll give my aunts pieces and my mother in law for her birthday… and she shook her head no and told me it was a decision she made when she started her business. No gifts.

I guess I see it differently. I’m not judging her decision or anything it’s a different approach. But I see it as convenient that I can make my gifts instead of having to buy them. Because trust me if I had to buy gifts no one would get anything cause i hate to shop. So for me it’s a bonus that I can brighten someone’s day by giving them a pair of earrings I made. I don’t need my family or friends to patronize my business either. Some do, some don’t, I don’t take it personally either way. But more than that, I’ve actually tried to give people pieces that they wanted and they insisted on buying them. I’ve never had that problem of people asking for or expecting free pieces. Ever. 

Maybe that’s why I’ve never had to draw that line. And I guess I can consider myself lucky if that’s the case.

Twice in three days I took an Allegra and immediately had a sneezing fit. Could I be allergic to allergy medication?

It just occurred to me that after the 23rd I’m going to have a nice break from work and maybe the perfect thing would be to spend a few days on the beach and take up surfing again. I have a beautiful, barely used longboard sitting downstairs. I don’t know where the rest of my gear is but I can find it or buy new stuff. I haven’t surfed in years but this would be a good opportunity to get back on it. Who wants to come?

My resin pieces are outselling my other stuff. By miles. Yes they’re a little cheaper but honestly I just think they’re so much flashier and prettier that people aren’t even noticing all my druzy jewelry. It’s not a problem per se… I’m just having an imbalance where a lot of stuff is moving on one end and on the other I have a bit of a surplus. Oh well I guess I’ll just put the druzy stuff on my website. And make more resin pieces. 

This resin thing is really taking off. That is not a bad thing. To be honest I absolutely love it working in this medium. When I was starting out making jewelry, my initial idea was the do a nature-based jewelry line. I went in another direction (using raw gemstones and such) mainly because what I had in mind was too time consuming and I wanted to get my shop up and running.

The resin thing came out of a casual conversation with a fellow jewelry maker. After we talked about it I just decided to take the plunge and try it out. I never expected it would eclipse my other line, but that’s what it’s starting to do. It’s cheaper but more time consuming to make. Not labour intensive. Just time consuming. If that makes sense. But I am really, really enjoying it. It’s breathed new life into my work and brought me joy in a way that the other stuff doesn’t anymore. And it is selling like crazy. It’s a win-win all around. This is so not something I expected. But I am so happy I chose this direction to explore. The sky’s the limit here. I’m excited. And that feels really great.

• The market was good today. Not as good as last week but I expected that (everybody had just gotten paid). Given how tired I was last night I was really energetic today for some reason. It was weird. Even other people noticed it. I’m still hyped up.
• I thought I had made enough pieces for the season. I was dead wrong. This week is going to be a lot of work to make up new stock. I have two markets next weekend.
• Something that I seem to be allergic to is driving me crazy. Itchy eyes, sneezing, runny nose. I had to get some Allegra today. Took it and just had a massive sneezing fit. I’m going nuts here.
• It’s also affecting my skin. I bought something from my resident essential oil all natural beauty guru. She knows how to treat problem skin. So far it’s giving me relief.
• First world problems is when you ate so much sushi for dinner you don’t have room for your strawberries and cream.

saltieyogaprof:

inlikekevin:

my-body-aches-for-you:

Haven’t done one in a while…

DO IT GODDAMNIT.

Oh, I’d love to see this shit. Go for it.